The Last Option | Life Blog

“You pass years with me and on a random Sunday walk by the roadside you see love flourishing between a couple in a way you have not seen.”

On the similar lines, comes the next blog titled,

“The Last option”.

Beginning

In this always-changing scenario, even love has lost its piousness and understanding. It has moved away from having love and living it, to achieving it that too at a priority.

Priorities always give a feeling of confidence. To be treated at priority boosts self-confidence and ego. To be an object of someone’s love or desire gives an edge over the others. And so even in case of trying to get love, everyone; loves to be loved at first rather than waiting with patience for having it with time. To be the first choice; first attention or someone’s first love is something that becomes more important than the person whose attention is supposed to be craved.

Love takes place in confusion and gets lost in maturity. We meet people, like them, date them, love them, and get committed. Slowly with time and the issues of life and love, we move out of them. Love withers. We move and make new memories, prepare ourselves to love someone again. The cycle of love thus continues.

Middle

Maybe, I am not comfortable with the moving on thing. I am not ok being the “first-person”; with the idea of loving again and again or getting accepted and rejected and continuing this vicious circle of love. Maybe what I want is to be happy and be with someone who feels happy with me. But this happiness should not be for a particular time period, it should be as long as our existence prevails.

I want to be in an aura of love where emotions and feeling exists; where love is valued and felt and should not come only as a part and parcel that is attached to a relationship tag. Also, I don’t want to be someone who is tried and tested and if found a better one, is refused or rejected. I would love to bend in love but not be a changed and different person in love. I and ready to be the last option in the life of the relation I will have in my life.

To the ones who may enter to my life,

“Let me be the last option of your life; be the one whom you consider and choose to be with after experiencing the different shades of love. Let me be the one who concludes your beginning, who finishes your search and who completes you. The one to whom you seek redemption, peace and relaxation; when you realize you do not want to search anymore and you want to not just try but get settled down with.

There is a reason and a rationale behind this thought. Because somewhere deep inside me, I don’t want to be the first person, anyone come and resort to for help. Nor the first one whom you think of when you want to laugh when you want to share your sorrows; when you want some help or even when you think of settling down.

We as humans are greedy by nature. Always crave for more and better when we get something. We accept it for the time being and hope for a better version of it. And so, if and when you settle with me first, you have not seen the world, you have not seen the cruelty; the rudeness and the harshness of the society. Also, you have not seen the extent to which you can be loved and understood; what type of people you can be compatible with and what type of experiences you can have in your relationship. We met each other and fell in love, what love you received or saw was what I delivered and that you considered as of paramount level.

Conclusion

You pass years with me and on a random Sunday walk by the roadside you see love flourishing between couples in a way you have not seen. On your journey of life, you will meet and see friends, lovers, families all there happily enjoying love in a unique way which you have never seen and you will feel regret thinking that you could have got this, only if you would have not settled with me at first in your life.

I don’t want to be that regret also I don’t want myself be the pity, you feel for yourself and don’t want the reason for your not being exposed to the world, to the types of relations, to the different love and sufferings. I want you to go outlive the life you wish to live, with others. Share the moments with others, pass the time, share a trust and experience everything. And in this experience, feel the love you want to have. And then if you will realize and find that life you want to get settled with, from someone else; be happy to go there.

End

But in case you find me somewhere on the path and feel that it is me the one who can be with you for seasons to come; I will be waiting. Because now you might have had understood my importance and it is very much possible that you will not leave me. You will stick to the thick and thin of life. You might ignore the small petty issues because you might no longer give them or treat them as something of great importance.

Fights will be a part of the particular day and will not be extended to the whole life, arguments done in an hour will be treated and cured instead of continuously nagging on them. Now you will not compare me with anyone. You might avoid thinking of better or worse and somehow now with your whole heart and mind and with genuine love you will end up with this last option as the best option and first option of your upcoming beautiful life.”

Sincerely Yours,

The Last Option

Article Published at @The Good men Project

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To her from him | Life Blog

Love in young days looks beautiful and when it is read years later, the language, the words and the mistakes make it look even better.

Some letters define us                  

The first message on Facebook was, as usual, first meeting through a friend was ordinary. The first talk on the phone, the first exchange of texts was casual. But it never remained the same way too long. The voice began to sound cute than normal. The laughter sounded like soft music than being absurd. The feel for you grew day by day at a rate higher than that at which our heartbeats. The urge to see as well as hear you increased with the passage of time.

I was in love with you, in a very short time. When I was at the peak of my emotions of dreaming a life with you; I suddenly fell down, hearing from you that we are about to become good friends. In seconds of time, my feelings were crushed; my world was devastated and I was left all alone in the entire world. As after a day, I became normal. I realized how I overreacted by ending my world; just in a relation which actually got the time of only 1 month to rise. I felt myself as dumb. But the silver lining in the chapter was you agreed that we became friends and those too Good Friends.

Our talks as friends enhanced and we became known to each other to a better extent. I constantly made efforts to know you more as that special feeling for you apart from being just friends were still there in me. I loved each part of my time which had the presence US instead of ME alone. The talking to you till late nights was one of them. We didn’t have much to talk but still the continuation of it till long hours, though rarely, made me feel good. Whenever you used to be Dull or out of the mood, I tried to make you happy and craved to see you smile.

Continue..

I was not paid for the job of making you happy; still am satisfied I received with the returns I get with your smile.  In the test of the time apart from my work; which I rarely did, the best thing was to think about you, it gave me a sense of contentment filled with peace. I was happier to live in that dreamy world of ours which belonged to only me though. I didn’t know you in-depth even till then; but still, in my own world, you had the best qualities and you were the best person, I can ever imagine of.  Still, in as per your thoughts, it was too early.

Time was going great with you in my life. We haven’t met each other that way since long; as you always had priorities for your best buddies and your old batch mates; and also you might not even that much interested in meeting me, but that didn’t bother me. I don’t want you to go away from the things you love and come to me; as that would be a compromise and, love is understanding not compromise. I neither thought to disturb you from your happily going life; as your actual presence didn’t matter to me by that time. It was your voice, your nature, your heart and more importantly your feelings that took the prior place.  Still, in your view, it was too early.

Hope..

I was feeling more and more for you and you were just the same. With the passage of 2 years, we became known to each other a bit more. But still, in your words, I just knew you 60% of the total (but, who had actually known girls to 100 %, not even GOD) and you knew my whole. With all the fights, all the over-possessive attitude of mine, the least caring attitude of yours; all my days, when I actually irritated you and during all the time when you spent hours talking to me; and with all those break-ups of mine with you; even without having any relationship with you we actually got to know about each other’s life’s; daily activities, and all the things related to each other, in a better way and we became somewhat close friends.

At least a sort of bond you don’t share with people who know and people with whom you share are very few. But still, we were only Friends. Harsh but true. I got to learn a lot more good qualities from you; some from you and the others for you but still you weren’t able to learn Lover from me. With your neutral attitude towards Love and with a smile that still pleases me, I actually became a bit more patient. I realized that it’s still not the time to be a person who belongs to you. It’s still better to be a person by your side.

Conclusion..

True love may need a hand in hand to travel the journey of life together, but why to imprison the other person by holding her. A great love only needs a feel of love from love, to live the entire life with peace and happiness. I realized that it’s you that matters to me, it’s your feeling that makes me feel happy, it’s your innocence that makes me feel bliss.

Neither it was and nor it is a tag of relationship that will make a difference. The feel which I share for you is way ahead than any relation, it’s a state of comfort for me, to feel for you. You may exist with me or not, but your existence in me is already there. Still, it will be great to see you with me, together embraced in my arms, smiling at each other and having a life worthy with each other  for the rest of the life together,

                             But I know

                                 ……. Still in your view it was too early

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